FILL THE CAULDRON

Hi. My name is Mel, and I’m a former hot mess.

Don’t get me wrong, from the outside, I looked great. Sure, I was over-worked and under-appreciated in a high-stress job in the wilds of DC. Sure, my social life was full…usually full of other hot messes who like me, didn’t know how to meaningfully engage with other humans in a healthy way. My dating life was either non-existent, a tele-novella, or the romantic equivalent of a dog chasing parked cars. My health was average…meaning I had undiagnosed and untreated anxiety disorders, uncontrolled weight gain, probably high blood pressure, problems sleeping, and heart burn. I self-sabotaged myself into mild survival at every turn. To me, seeking a life rich in abundance and manifesting my own power was selfish, ungrateful, and not something I had permission to seek.

I was a people pleaser in the worst way. My cauldron was empty, but I kept sharing my magic (even before I knew it was magic) in hopes I’d make someone – anyone – validate me and offer me the respect I wasn’t willing to show myself.

By 2021, I was barely balancing my marriage, first-time motherhood during a worldwide pandemic and unprecedented social isolation, and a stressful career that was becoming more and more chaotic by the minute. After the traumatic loss of a beloved family, the dam broke and I broke down. A metric crapton of therapy and a distillery of whiskey later, I set out on a journey to find myself and love myself, as I was, in that moment.

Slowly, I began refilling my cauldron. I awakened my witchy side, and embraced the old ways of my Celtic ancestors. I unleashed my feminine power, long dormant in my veins, and let it flow forth like a powerful river of love, empathy, and manifested joy. I grounded myself with small, daily rituals to weave magic into my most mundane moments, and found peace in my life again. Healthy boundaries became a thing in my life for the first thing.

As my cauldron filled, I found myself dipping into that magic to share with others. I showed up for friends and perfect strangers, holding space in ways I never knew I could. I had energy to share with those who needed it, and tools to refill my cauldron when I felt depleted and tired.

I created FIll the Cauldron to support women like my former self, who are barely treading water but yearn to soar amongst the stars. It is for the woman who is ready to do the real work to dig into her shadow self, confront her limitations, and conquer them to live a life of abundance.

Come fill your cauldron with me!